Day 2 without my bubu

It has been 2 days without my bubu beside me..He went to Germany to work..How much i miss him =( Was kinda sad when he leave but he cheered me up...didnt know that he will call me...thanx bubu

EXAM

the scariest,most stressful time of the students...it is just around the corner...next week's final...i just hope to pass all the subjects wit flying colours~!!! GOD bless me pls~!!! hahahax..all rightz..tat's all for now..gotta go study~!!!

GAMBATE~!!!

What's wrong with me???

i had been asking myself...what's wrong with me....i'm not feeling well...and by this,it meant that my heart is not feeling welll...LUNA BAR LUNA BAR LUNA BAR~!!!! why always is luna bar???

today is saturday...it's so boring~!!! i finished both my tests d~!! HURRAY for me...

BUT

final's is just less than a month =( hate my life a lot~!!!

POP UP

I was frenstering just now and viewing lotsa ppl..I saw the Luna Bar's pic...All of sudden,i thought back of my bf and the BIATCH went to the Luna Bar..I really really really wana go there..it's like so beautiful... BUT..I guess my dreams just won come true..kinda sad and moody =( feel like crying...not i wana compare BUT it's the truth...as in he brought her there but NOT ME~!!!

Today,i just finished 1 test..I lost a few marks edi...haihz...hope i will past it if not,sem 2 will be hard for me or i might not even get to sem 2 =( tomolo i got another test and after tat,final's here...college life is so hectic and kinda hard to get thru...even though i admit,i had lotsa frenz,enjoy and sam pat wit my frens ^^

HARD TO LET GO THE PAST!

stressful environment

College Life = stressful environment

Having 2 tests this week and the other 2 for the next week.*sigh* College Life...is full of stressful environment...those coursework,test,presentations and my finals are killing me =<>
Another stressful time =( i really do wana get good results and examz is just around the corner....this means,i have to work pretty hard...GAMBATE Jess~!!!

After examinations,we'll have 2 weeks holiday..it is our semester break which is NOT ENOUGH~!!! ARH~!!!! until then,the 2nd sem will starts and this means by my life will be more miserable =<

Anyway~~~~WORK HARD,PLAY HARD-ER =D

GAMBATE~!!!

A week full with sadness~

In a few weeks time,my bestie will be leaving to singapore to further her studies...i'll miss her much...she's the best bestie that i've ever got...we used to share our happiness,sadness,disappointments together...but now...it only leave me alone to go thru my own path....the only bestie that really look alike =( i rememba that when i just broke up,she's the 1 who accompany me,who really tried to make me happy,who intro guys to me so that i will forget my ex....i really dunno how wud i survive without her here...no1 will teach me how to overcome my fears,gimme advice and be my listener....

today....some1 used my fren to compare wit me and say that i'm vv childish..i dun mind if he say that i'm childish...but he compare sum1 that he knew just for a few days...i really hope that my bestie will not leave me alone here....no1 will gimme advice,help me to scold those ppl who bully me,be my listener,understand me.......my life and her life is like the same path...wateva she's been thru,i'm goin thru the same 1 too....to my bestie,"i love u & thanx for being here for me"

happy happy day ^^

*PHEW* today was an exhausted day...woke up early and went to bf's house to meet his mum...later,we went to Mid Vally & Gardens for shopping..in the Gardens,it looks high class ^^
his mum bought some things but i didnt...cuz i do not wana spent her money =) hmmm...i wana buy a new shades,black eyeliner or black eye shadow...comparing the prices and qualities ^^
Then later in the night,i met my bf =D we went to the playground..i was super duper happy...cuz we had lotsa funs ^^ maybe he doesnt noe such small places can bring huge happiness to me...i wana say thanks a lots to him for tonite ^^

patched up

Had just patched up again...tired of playing this game..*SIGH* what to do??? by the end of this week,i have another test again...i'm not prepared for it yet...
Looking for part time job too...but mostly are events who hired good body shape gals...some do not have flexible time =( HATE my life vv much~!!!

The correct choice?

Had just broke up with my 1st love....what had i done? is this the correct choice????? will i regret? I'm really in deep trouble...really afraid that i done the wrong choice and afraid that i will regret =(..at least i wouldn't disturb him anymore and he wouldn't feel that i'm very very annoying...and at least i no need to get scolded anymore....i just hope he'll get a better life and will be in good health always.

But all of sudden.....i miss him...why do i wana choose this path????? i'm really confused and vv sad...*SIGH* at least i wouldn't need to be worry anymore...no need to fear that he will be snatched by other gals...cuz he doesnt belong to me anymore....**take care**

vv moody

EMO

It's a moody day.As i had my microeconomics test today...was kinda worry that i couldn't pass.*SIGH* I dunno what had come into me....have been comapring myself with other girls lately,those perfect ones =( beautiful eyes,pretty ones and have a vv perfectly done body shape.


Have been dieting for a year....my bestie said compare to last year,i'm much better and have big difference....but i felt that it just not enough...just hope miracle could happen once in my life =(


it's so hard dieting like this...esp having a bf who kept giving pressures....dun eat this dun eat that...wtf...cant i have a break???? just for once? *SIGH* why is my life so suffering? =(

Disappointments

Today is friday...I was really very sad and disappointed on you..In short,i'm heart broken..You did not bring me out and you said that u had promise your frens that you need to go out with him.
I'm not being childish..I just want you to know that i'll not be here on the weekend,so can't you spent some time with me? Is it so hard? I just do not understand why you cant break their promises and you always break mine? You keep saying that i'm first place...but I don't think so...Is this what a 1st place would get??? I date you first but you rather choose your frens.
This is not the 1st time already..I had observe this a lot of times....I didn't want to compare me and HER....but......Why did she get to go to those nice places??? Why when you came to find me,you never bring me to a better place? It's always the same place~!! I'm bored and tired of the same place~!! I really hate you a lot~!!! You rather choose your frenz,other ppl and other gals than choosing me....I'm really disappointed on you~!!!
It's just so hard being your gf...I always get scolded by you...even just a lil small mistake...and you say that i'm immature & "ye man"...Is it wrong if a gf really wana see her bf????

Flying Fox day

Today we played flying fox...I was very excited..It was bout 8 floors high...I shouted as loud as i could when i need to "melapor"...I was shivering as it was very scary...everyone below can hear me...I'm so embarassed...But i had fun...I wana do it 1 more time,but all trainees were allowed to do once only =(

my NS and my confused feelings

Been into NS for the past 2 weeks and was back for holidays.It was a memory that i couldn't forget.My friends who is in the same hostel as me,celebrated my b'day...I was too shocked and touched at the same time.My tears roll down as my friends bring the cake to my front.Our coach celebrated with us too^^ It was a memory full of surprises and worth to be remembered.
I reached the airport today in the afternoon.I thought i would get another surprise from my bf....but as i expected it,even a single present i didnt get.
I had been thinking the whole day...should we be separated for some time?? I kept comparing how he treat other gals and how he treat me.
ESP the gal tat he likes which makes us broke up the last time....He celebrated her b'day and she had a present...
WHY i'm as his gf,he didnt plan anything for me?? He did promised me for I want a surprise....I feel horrible and disappointed.Now i truely understand the meaning of FORGIVE BUT NOT TO FORGET...Both of us did sacrifice in the past..but in love,it doesnt count how much u sacrifice and how much u gain it back....
I STILL LOVE HIM but still comparing his past...I feel sorry to him.

confused emotions

It's been quite a while since i write this things...I couldn't explain how and what I'm feeling right now..Many things happened today and all my emotions had been mixed up...
I was thinking bout my bf that i'm having now...should I break up with him? Will I be happy after I do that?? Does he really love me?? Will he repeat the same thing again? All these worries me a lot..Especially having a third party..
I do feel wasted if we just break up like this...I've waited for 6months++ for him to come back to my side...but love isn't how much you sacrifice and gain how much back...
Is it I'm the 1 who's been thinking too much? Should I give both of us a chance?? I dun dare to go through the damn suffering feelings again...I know this is very unfair to him...But is the only way to protect myself..Time will prove whether we suit for each other...

开心

今天真的很开心^^ 因为可以在你家过夜=)
也因为可以和你在一起。我觉得自己很幸福当你帮我打扮时。我们一起去Genting。虽然你没脱我的手，但是能和你在一起我已经觉得满足了。

Happy Valentine's Day

Today is valentine's day.I wasn't happy at all.A lonely valentine for me =(
You didn't date me out.I had given you all the hints but I'm not sure whether you get it or not.

还那么爱你

回到我们开始的地点，还记得那一次你说你会爱我到永远。到最后你也是放弃了。我所有的付出你都看不见。
Is it really time to say goodbye? Is it really time to let go? Is it really time to forget you? All these questions are on my mind every moment.
每一次看见你和别的女子在一起，你知不知道我的心有多痛吗？
I asked you whether you still have feelings for me or not? You said a bit....I had been thinking."A bit" can just fade away easily.In the past,our 3 years feelings also just fades away like that.Should i wait for you? I don't know.You had been waiting for me in the past 3 years.Maybe it's my turn now.
No matter who you like,I don't care.As long as you are happy,as long as it is not yee ling.
I think this is GOODBYE.Take care and all the best in the future is all i can said.

still hurt...

You asked me out for dinner on 26/1/08.I was very happy ^^.After the dinner,we stayed and chat for quite some time.I was very confused.You did say wana get back together but it depends on me.

On 27/01/08 i couldn't sleep.I kept thinking of what you said.In the end,i sms you whether you are sure that you wana patch up.But the answer you gave me was,"see you can thin anot..sorry".I did not get angry.I was quite sad to see that msg.

I remembered my dad told me once,"the guys that see you also would turn away from you!".I've told you this when we're still together and you said that you wouldn't do that.Now that i know,whatever my dad say is true.I was very hurt and kept thinking lotsa things.I cudn't sleep till it was 7 something in the morning.But still,i didn't sleep well.I woke up at 10.17am.

No matter how much I've changed,i still can't compared to all the girls who is around you.In the past,you had suffered a lot and I didn't want that to happen again.I've once told my friends and your mum that,"once he's awake,i'm satisfied! I also hoped that he'll stay happy".That is all I want.

I'm still strong enough to hang on.Even though i still miss you,i still love you,I think it is best that you decide it.No matter what your decision is,I won't mind.26/01/08....I think this was the last day we met.I wouldn't meet you anymore.I will stay here hoping that everything will go on smoothly for you.All the best!

A Dream

Everything will just be like a dream,the situations that we overcome together,the happiness we shared and the moments of arguements.It will be a beautiful dream.Now that i'm awake,those dreams will just be memories,and everything will be back to normal.You'll just be my respectful brother and i'll be your adorable sister.Thanks for everything.What had happen in the past,will be erased and remain as a wonderful dream.

~Rain or shine,life goes on~

-BuBbLe Q-

很开心。。。

今天真的很开心。看见你那么紧张我的样子，心真的很开心喔！这样已经够了。你知道吗？你紧张我的样子很好笑=) 但是谢谢你还那么紧张我。

对不起

对不起。我避开你是因为我很怕我控制不到。真的对不起！我们不能在这样下去了。你可以当我是朋友，但是我不能。所以我才这样做。我们不能在见面也不能在sms了。我对你还有感情。我只能这样解决。很想念你，很想见你。约你，你又不出。很想见你最后一面。但是，就算了把。希望你找到你的快乐。

很开心 ＝D

2008年1月5日，今天我很开心因为你说你要来找我。MARDIGRAS 和 RUUMS 是一个天一个地的地方。如果比现在和以前，你以前最多说，“小心点”。真的很开心，也有点感动。我很想见你，但是不想给你看见我那么丑样的样子。你可以不要对我那么好吗？可以不理我吗？可以不关心我吗？因为我会误会。很想和你说我还是那么爱你。我真的很辛苦。明明还爱你，但是不能说因为怕你会吓倒！我只能在你面前当你是我的好朋友。真的很痛苦。你开心就够了，我瘦几多苦也无所谓。

分手。。。

2007年08月01日，我还记得是你和我分手的日子。你真的很绝，一眼都不看我。你是真的对我没感情了吗？当我知道你真的不爱我了，心真的很痛。我还记得当我说我要放弃了，你就哭着对我说，“我们那么辛苦才能在一起，为什么你要放弃？！”你还记得你说的话吗？你说的每一句话我都记得，都放在心里。虽然我们不能在一起，我已经很满足了因为我曾经拥有过。

还放不下你

你知到吗？我用了半年来忘记你，但是我还做不到。这半年，我真的很辛苦，很想念你。当你为了她而和我分手，你知到我心有多痛吗？做什么都不专心。真的很想留你在身边。“人因不了解而在一起，因了解而分开”，这句话是真的吗？很后悔放你走。很想在和你说“我爱你”。我知到你的心已经不在我这里了。我会祝福你的。谢谢你给我那么美丽的回忆。