Flying Fox day

Today we played flying fox...I was very excited..It was bout 8 floors high...I shouted as loud as i could when i need to "melapor"...I was shivering as it was very scary...everyone below can hear me...I'm so embarassed...But i had fun...I wana do it 1 more time,but all trainees were allowed to do once only =(

my NS and my confused feelings

Been into NS for the past 2 weeks and was back for holidays.It was a memory that i couldn't forget.My friends who is in the same hostel as me,celebrated my b'day...I was too shocked and touched at the same time.My tears roll down as my friends bring the cake to my front.Our coach celebrated with us too^^ It was a memory full of surprises and worth to be remembered.
I reached the airport today in the afternoon.I thought i would get another surprise from my bf....but as i expected it,even a single present i didnt get.
I had been thinking the whole day...should we be separated for some time?? I kept comparing how he treat other gals and how he treat me.
ESP the gal tat he likes which makes us broke up the last time....He celebrated her b'day and she had a present...
WHY i'm as his gf,he didnt plan anything for me?? He did promised me for I want a surprise....I feel horrible and disappointed.Now i truely understand the meaning of FORGIVE BUT NOT TO FORGET...Both of us did sacrifice in the past..but in love,it doesnt count how much u sacrifice and how much u gain it back....
I STILL LOVE HIM but still comparing his past...I feel sorry to him.