Weekends~~

as usual lor...is saturday night again...not much i can do other than clubbing or watch movie or yam cha...well...for this week,i went to club lor...
was suppose to go to phuture...but suddenly cancel =( damn sad ler...hiahz..yuan said she saw pui zhen there...wish i was there...ens up,M.RN say go sanctuary...so i changed...cuz i was wearing dress earlier preparing to go phuture...
since plan changed,so oso need to chge clothes to suit the environment geh =P but end up,didnt go to sanctuary...instead,we went to bamboo 9~!!! i hate bamboo...vv sienz...not fun...or is it the persons i'm with,tat's y it aint fun??
nothing much to update tho...went home super duper late...M.RN fetched me home...according to him,i was vv drunk~!! OMG~!! damn paiseh...wonder if i had done anything embarassing...lolz..
not in a vv good mood to blog today =( haihz...vv fan lar...there's someone out there is in trouble...but,i had done all i can to help him...i had given all the advice i could...which is same as A.L...but it's really up to him that which path he wana choose =) may god bless you...

27112009 - haji holiday

today is hari raya haji...no class...but have piano lesson in the morning =( then i came home and prepare myself...to go to mid valley with kat,joyce and M.RN...
was sooooo tired...aite,we had our brunch at double one...then headed to midvalley...we walked and shop till dead...then we walked to gardens...went into isetan...nothing in there suits me...came out and sit down,rest...
after that,me and M.RN headed to midvalley again to buy clothes...i tried on a few...but still thinking wana buy or not..end up,i bought nothing today =( haihz...nvm lar...will be going to shopping wit my dear chai yen soon ^^ her taste is good...so she might help me to get some good clothes ^^
then went back to the gardens again...cuz our car parked there...joyce bought the famous karipap...dun even know bout that..havent try before...then we went home for dinner..
we had our dinner at kepong baru...mei gai hup...quite delicious lar..or was i starving?? then headed home cuz i had second round...planned to go poppy with hui boon...but my colleague dun wana go...so end up yam cha with yee teng...
yee teng and her bf came to fetch me...went to papparich...she even introduce darius to me...quite good guy lar...doesnt club...and he got curfew~!!! seldom boys have curfew...lolz...then darius fetch me home...cuz yee teng's bf is in a rush...we talked on our way home =)
yee teng is planning trips...she invited me along...i asked her to confirm the date first ^^ they're having sem breaks...but i'm not =( that's y..well,all of us stay so near only...there's lotsa of chance in the future...

The day i meet you again - 25112009

i can see that you really had lotsa things on your mind...aite...here goes...it was a vv usual college day...then we yam cha at nite..with hw,vc,yielyn and jl...including me and you...thanks for fetching me anyway...
we reached kinda late...but nvm lar,jl oso bout 10 pm only off duty...all the time,you were just busy pressing your handphone or laptop checking on her...even hw said that you came out not to yam cha...but i truly understands that what you had on your mind...
well,b4 12am,everyone went home...just left the 2 of us...i accompanied you...was supposed to sleep early,cuz having discussion at 8 the next day...but i stay...bout 2 sth only we left station 1..
u were chatting with alvin and hl in msn...and i saw everything...you told alvin that u had been hurt by gals...u wana be a player and you saw frens around you oso had been hurt by gals too...at that particular moment,i was thinking,did i hurt you like the way she did?? i do hope you can be rationale a bit...
this gurl wasnt simple...i told you that,i warned you...even your frens...even your mum...but u chose not to believe us..end up this way...not to say i'm being jealous of what...but that's the truth...
think properly lar...dun let your feelings control you...i'm sure there are much more better gurls than her outside there...that you deserve...dun hope to see you hurt this way again...may god bless you...

another day of HYPER-ness

lolz...ck ar...i know u are reading this...sorry,couldnt make it to post this on the 24th...i just woke up...hahaha...12 sth now almost 1am jor...so it's 25th...another new day ler =)
wonder why,i went crazy whole day long...vv active...hahah...i had a vv good night sleep last nite...mayb cuz i was too tired after donating blood...
today i bought grapes to eat...seedless ones...jo jo asked funny question when she saw that grapes of mine...she asked "what is that"...and i answer "DARK CHOCOLATE"...lolz...everyone laughed ^^
i took some pictures of it too...will be uploading them tomolo...including the blood donation's photos =)
went for BRUNCH today...brunch is wat we call when we eat breakfast and lunch together...hehe...cost savings =) went to old place for that...then headed back to college...didnt went to the library lar...was in car,lazy to go down...so lynn check our assignments in my car...while she's checking,i'm eating my baby grapes...they're soooo cute and small in size...i ate the big ones too...erica asked "why all so small 1 de"...hahah...that's the reason why =D

Blood Donation Campaign 2009

today the blood donation campaign 2009 starts...planned to donate on thurs geh...but frens are going today..so i went lu...
first i enter the college hall...they measure our weight...then we need to fill up particulars form...then wait...after that we need to test our blood is in which category...i'm "O" type...after that,they measure our pressure and ask a lot things since this is my first time...
they key in our particulars and gave us a red book...is used everytime when we donate our blood...headed to next counter to take the blood bags and needles...after that have to wait again for my turn to donate...while waiting,i look at jon...OMFG~!!! i saw how the nurse insert the needles...vv scary..
i chose a seat for right hand geh...gori say it's better to choose active hand...so i did...i dare not look at my hand...kinda hurt a bit...the nurse say can start jor,so i kept move my palm...as in holding tight and form a shape of knuckle...
my blood is kinda concentrated...so kinda slow..but i press vv hard jor...i guess ok gua ^^ the bag is 450ml ler...damn lots...now my veins are blue black and even got a bump jor =( but after the donation,i felt dizzy...normal lar =) i oso felt happy cuz my blood may be used to save lifes =) photos of me donating blood will be upload later ^^

another thing was,i get back my economics result...it is far from my expectations...i get 38 over 40 ^^ hurray...another 2 marks gone cuz of careless mistakes =( haihz...nvm lar...try harder the next time =D

been attacked AGAIN by her - 22112009

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Fantastic Friday - 20112009

it's friday~!!! hurray...it's hwee lynn's birthday...well,we celebrated on thurs..we bought her a cake and a jeans skirt...she loves them..the plan was supposed to give her a surprise before our first lesson...but plan spoilt cuz i woke up late and yuen didnt have car...
then we had a second plan is to give her a surprise after our 1st lesson...surprised was spoilt again becuz of yuen sent the msg to wrong person...she sent to lynn~!!! well,nvm that...better than ntg =)

on friday,we had our pavilion days once more ^^ have lectures in the morning...then we went for breakfast...after that only head to pavilion =) we watched 2012 ^^ great movie...the ticket was vv vv long...it's for 23 persons..haha...we took pics of it too...it's in my fb...
we gals and guys oso took a group foto...categories each and have a big group of foto for both categories ^^ was having a great time...hopes that there's always another time again =) as in going to pavilion,watch movie in such big groups...this is our 1st time,the biggest of all...almost the whole class went =)

Wet Wednesday

It's another rainy day in kl...everyday also rain and it rain non stop for the whole day =( rainy days always remind me of sadness,emo-ness...had my MA coursework test today...i did badly...i knew i will fail...no hope at it anymore...can only count on my coursework 2 and attendance...
had been thinking for a while...friends around me and my ex...there are ppl who understand me and there are not...most of them dun understands me...well,i wouldnt blame them bcuz i hide my feelings deeply and sometimes,i send out the wrong msg to them...when i'm serious,they thought i'm jk...when i'm jk,they thought i'm serious...only those who are really close to me understands me...
close here means like really very very best frens...darling yuan was one of it...sometimes i do not need to speak out,she also knew what i wana say...sometimes ppl thought those who close to me understands me...but i can tell u,even my ex dun understand me...
sometimes it really hurts when u see someone who's close to you,knew you for years...yet they still dun trust you,they still suspect you,they never support you,never stand by your side...it really hurts alot...
am i that hard to communicate with? my conditions are very easy...i just needed someone to support me by my side...i felt like i'm collapsing...i felt vv tired...tired of being acting strong,independent girl who doesnt need a man...deep down,i needed some1 to care for me,love me for who i am...sometimes,i need someone's shoulder to lean on...need someone to hug...
but it aint easy to find someone who totally understands me,care me and love me for who i am...well,i'll just let it flow...next year,i'll be doing ACCA...it means,there's no time for fun already...maybe just not that much...i will continue to update my post =)

Phuture =)

hurray~!!! miracle #1 had been achieved =) went to phuture instead of poppy...vv vv happy...among all the clubs,i love most is phuture =) everything was fun except for the part when mashi was mad =(
that day,he really in a vv vv bad mood...vv scary...he looks fierce...i was vv afraid too =( i had never seen him in this way b4...i wonder how is he now...haihz...
we went in...then chai peng join us later...we took lotsa fotos...love my darling lots...really had lotsa fun...fun like i never had b4...at first,i went in and drank quite a lot...bcuz i wasnt happy...was thinking the reason behind mashi's bad mood...feel kinda dizzy...then my darling control me,wouldnt let me to drink anymore until i was better...
boom boom shake shake all nite long...really vv happy...all her cousins are vv frenly...i hope there's next round with them again...but i dun think there is anymore =( mashi seems to dislike me...i didnt wear the dress that mashi bought...bcuz he asked me not to say a word bout it,bout the dress was bought by him =( so i might as well not wear it...i really love that dress,but,couldnt wear =( haihz...anxiously waiting for the photos ^^

Miracles...

my darling just came back from singapore ytdy =) this time,no matter what,i'll gonna meet up with her~!!! miss her lots...as b4,we discussed to go to poppy...something happen in the middle so it was like "cant-go-kinda news"...but now,it's on
might be going to phuture,said my darling =) better...haha...vv happy ler...tonite can meet her,mashi and a zai...all oso vv long no see jor...especially a zai...hurray~!!! but still,just now was havin transport prob...everything's settle right now...just hope that it wouldnt cancel suddenly...
planned to wear my near dress ^^ but i dunno which heels to go with it...the highest heels is the 1 which best suits it...but i'm gonna feel tired later =( so how...which sud i wear =(
mashi's kinda cool today...wonder why =( i felt that he kinda dislike me d...is he? =( i wonder why...what had i done to upset him? what had i done to made him feel this way towards me? =(

me,myself and i

who am i?? i kept asking myself this question..not just people around me said that i had changed BUT also my closed fren..recently,i realized that i'm not the old me anymore...i somehow found myself to be a monster...
i once used to be very cheerful,nothing to kept from any1 else...now still the same,as in cheerful...but i kept everything to myself...is it because i had been hurt,had been betrayed? or is it bcuz i had no1 that i trust to talk to? i dont know what came over me...
i have lots and lots of unhappy things...at times,i just wish to cry...but big girls dont cry =) i tried to be strong...i tried my best...but there's a limit...i dont know how long i can go on anymore...sometimes,i feel like i'm going to collapse soon...
what more can i do? i'm hiding my feelings...this is just so not me...i used to be someone who shows out all the emotions...even if i dont,i will share...i really do miss the old me...well,humans do grow old...so as for me,i think because of the changes around me,i'm changing according to it too...so far,mature was 1 of it that i heard from =) glad to hear that...

on next friday,we'll be celebrating hl's birthday...the whole class will go to pavilion for movie...we will be buying a mini skirt for lynn ^^ hope she will like it...and hey gal,you're 1 year big d...and enjoy your last year of teen ^^ we'll be taking lotsa pics =D

Disappointments

you're wondering,why am i feeling disappointed?? well,here's the story...ytdy,i told my darling yuan and mashi that this saturday go poppy...was vv excited bout it...yuan even call me to talk bout it..she even asked is it confirm...and i said YES~!!! but now...mashi MOST probably cant go...
reason?? well,he just told me that he dated his fren last week saying that this sat go for movie =( actually i'm vv disappointed and upset now bcuz he didnt told me ytdy when i say this sat go poppy...he had given both me and my darling hope...now,left us with disappointments...
but i truly understands that it's ok if he didnt go,bcuz he didnt see his fren since june...just that i'm feeling vv unhappy now...almost burst into tears...u might be thinking that i'm a cry baby...but think again...after all those excitements...it ended up for nothing =(

he did change alot since the last day we met...he wasnt like this b4...he was vv good...but now,everything he do,the way he talk...just doesnt seems like the mashi i once knew...became more lanci...dunno what came into him...haihz...i just dun hope to lose this good fren...and hope he can chge back to the old him when i first knew him...
honestly,i'm really feeling very moody now =( need a hug...and i do hope there will be changes in the plan...hope that there's miracle...hope that the poppy night is still on

SEM 2 - WEEK 5

this whole week nothing much happen lor...life just like river that flows...which means it's smooth but at times,water that run thru rocks have splashes a bit...i had coursework test on monday...then the whole week no event...
called phoebe ytdy...she was going to quottro or phuture...she did invite me,but i didnt go...cuz ryan said going to genting mar...but all thanks to MK lar...we didnt go...ryan's frens did call him to go sanctuary...unfortunately,it's full hse there...
so,jin chong's frens invited us to go bamboo 9...i drove...fetch both of them...went there...ah seng's gf is totally hot~!!! and frenly too...unlike jermaine's..we dance and drink and chat...ryan vomit blood again...haihz...
he had given me the "licence" to control him not to drink any alcoholic drinks anymore...lolz...i do hope he can do it also lar...i was kinda drunk ytdy...so i didnt fetch ryan home...i dump him at jin chong's hse...lolz...sorry...both of them said i drove at high speed...sorry lar...a bit drunk,rushing back home to sleep...i felt that i'm kinda lucky cuz there isnt any road blocks and i didnt had accident...lesson learnt was never drive when u know u're going to drink alchol....thank god =)
tomolo will be having economics coursework test again =( i haven study yet...but fret not,i still have time and my foundation is consider good =) pls pray that i will pass it with flying colours ^^

the next outing...

ohh...i forgotten to mention sth in my last post...tat day i went to lagoon with ryan mar...we wore the same shirt,same design,same colour...same pants,but diff colour...argh~!!! we zhong sam =( his bro say,zhong dou jeng...haha...i oso stun when i went into the car and saw ryan wore the same clothes as me...
we planned to go for movie 2012...it is still in planning stage...will be going with class...the usual mates...going to pavilion for that...they wanted to go on fri...but i cant...so we chged to sat nite ^^ right after our dinner,we go to pavilion...dinner will be havin at jalan aloh...it was gori's idea...i guess it's alright lar =) still waiting for confirmation only...this time we'll be going at nite...cuz hl got classes till 5 sth...so i guess it's gonna be fun =) lolz

Updates

well,i went for dinner on friday at D'fortune with ryan,mk and may...it's a western cuisine...then nothing much lar...the next day,i was suppose to go to phuture...but i cancel bcuz i need to wake up early on sunday morning...
on sat,we had class...after that i fetch chai yen home to let her prepare for our outing...then i leave her with felicia...becuz i need to look for my ex to separate our lines...but end up...haihz...i just had lunch with him...talked to his mum...there's things happening...but i couldnt write out...after that,i went to 1u to meet up with feli and cy...then we walked a while,we went to gei tak sek,kepong...took pic...i went home earlier cuz i need to prepare for the nite...
went to 1u again at nite...i watched jennifer's body...megan fox was sexy as usual...there's funny sexual scene too...actually that movie isnt as nice as i expected it to be...there's no conflict at all...it was all the same...just murder and drinking blood...
then on sunday,i went to lagoon with ryan,joyce and kat...nothing extraordinary...just normal...but it had expanded...it rains too...but we still get to play =) just a vv normal outing lor...haihz..
today i had a coursework test...i didnt study at all...i did...but it was like just go through...didnt do well...copy most of it...and some of it,i try to use my common sense...and all of us didnt have enough time to finish it...haihz...just hope to pass...