Thursday, September 25, 2014

That silent night kills

As how silent the night is,
It's slowly killing me on the inside...
I could hear my babyboi breathing,
I could hear my heartbeats...

As how much depression strikes on her lately,
Tonight,it had gone worse...
She had miss granny dearly! 

That essence of grief,
That shining crystals of pure sadness,
That extracts...
Is draining in her pockets of eyes...
As how the memories started to flash back...

She remembered clearly that...
Granny was once so proud of her,
Would go 'round and talked bout it...
Granny was proud of what she could do despite her background! 

As she sheds the extracts of sadness and grievances,
She be reminded that granny wouldn't wanna see her this way...
Granny would want her to continue to progress of what she dreamt of..
That next strong lady...
Regardless of how broken she is inside...

Granny,
This song here,was composed and dedicated to you...
I wish you are here to listen to it...
To tell me how proud you were once again...
I couldn't finish the song,
Because,it's simply too painful.
Need not worry bout mummy...
She still have got us..

I missed you!


On other note,
There are memories that should be kept away..
Let the past stay in there,
It that puny box,
Locked away...

It's towards the end of the book,
Let it be tossed,closed,and locked away...
And allow the new beginnings to be told..


Header will remained...
Although she knew she should change it upon blogging this...
The heart palpitates,
It hurts too much,
That her expressions has gotta go somewhere~ 

xx Annaliese xx 

Sunday, September 21, 2014

Chapter 24 (9)

Be warned! It's a reeaally reeaaally long post!

It's the 3rd quarter of the year already!
and here goes....

The day had come for the interns to bid farewell to their employers, their senior and co-workers (in this case would be other interns)
This is my 3rd batch of interns that I had trained...
but an event of most unexpected had occurred...

As the clock struck 5.30pm...
the interns handed us gratitude gifts!
We were at most utterly stunned,shocked,surprised and no words could come outta our mouth a moment there...
I was holding back my tears...

Ms Lam said,"Well, this shows your hard work had paid off!"
I couldn't agreed more...
I've never felt this way before *like a mentor seeing his trainees were all successful* just saying

Here's what they gave to us:
Candies! to keep us alive... ahem, awake i meant!
Decorative clays!
Stationeries holder!


This particularly intern named Esther spend days and nights preparing these gifts for us...
and not forgetting Kavina for the chocolates!
The "Yap Group" has a lil extra..
I've got the pillow for me back!
how can I not be touched?
It's the petty stuffs that counts and she knew my back was hurting!

It's a custom that anyone who left, we would had a farewell dinner treated by the rest!
and we celebrated at publika!
Here are the few shots :D

What's that I'm holding?
It's a cardboard message specially made for "Yap Group" only!
The contents are P&C :P
well, just saying...
try your luck reading that! XD

We still keep in touch up till today..
right now, in the office, we're more like friends than colleagues...
but ofcourse, whenever work is there, personal feelings shan't be thrown into as well
*we are professionals like that*

We watched maze runner together,
Esther still comes back and visit us during lunch and i've got a free Sundae Chocolate from her! 
We still hang out *food hunting*


I love this personally!

 The lonesome streets along Publika with city lights!


I'm missing this already!
And so does Esther!
Someday, we'll go back and try all the flavours!


This here, is my darling Esther who talks non-stop just like me...
All i need to do to shut her up is randomly take shoots like this of her XD





























Credits to Kelvin for these shots while the ladies were busy taking selfies
Loving my accessories!
Hah! Vanity much?




Our version of Maze runner towards the exit XD               My Sundae Chocolate by her *blissful*


Into the woods, Lil Red Riding Hood Cycled...

hey! life's gotta be balance right?
It's not all about work!
On Malaysia Day, *just another extra public holiday which i think we don't need*
It's time for some family day out with me mam!
*ka-cheng*
HIKING! one of my favourite sports here!
we went to FRIM and mummy wanted to cycle and here we go!
the lil ones were exhausted but time spent was always worthwhile when you're with your mam!



Mother Nature is always so gorgeous!
Her way of showing her beauty were explicit!

Next comes the night...that epic night!
It's been a while I party till sun up...
so does Grace!
the last was....
was....
when we were in the UK!

Altho it's the first time partying with this bunch,
it was never a wrong decision made!
we were bar hopping at Changkat till 3am..
next, we headed to Zouk,Velvet!
party till the lights were turned on *it simply means till it closed at 5am*
Went to klang for a super early breakfast!
by the time i got home, it's already 9am...
Worned out...knackered...
but we had fun still!
i don't think i can do this anymore...
too old for this sort *Covering mouth with both hands*



Outfit of that night! *didn't feel like being exposed too much*


A NEW FRIEND! 
p/s: she's effing wild!

    
Left: Before heading out to Changkat
Right: Party ends after sun up
I'm glad that my hair was still in place and the make up didnt smudge 
*teeheeeee*

It's been a while since the zoo gang gathers!
and the added bonus?
no one's bringing their partners!
I miss those days...when we were all so closed to each other...
but it's understandable as we grew,
each has things to do,
partners to accompany...
but what's hurting me more was that...
king kong is going away since she's marrying end of the year...
going away as in moving to another state...
and as for torty, she's moving out too...
*sniffs*

There's king kong,right on top of me...
the only one in the group who will be as crazy as me...

and here's torty in red!
she's the only one who will play along and act with me...
we were the drama queens back in college days!

Trainings on a saturday!
you have gotta be joking right?!
haha...yeah,it's a joke...
it's just a course to upgrade us..
during the break, we explored the newly opened bar!
Everything that the owner decorates were based on the 70s - 80s
Did I mention that they love Marilyn Monroe, Audrey Hepburn and etc.

The idea of using a hat as a lamp!


sitting outdoor is the best when it's raining and chilly!
Colleague mentioned that there's not much of a cheese taste...
*no idea*



Random shots taken at encorp strand mall during late night!


That's it for now...
though i don't feel like stopping
Next up would be plainly me and me and me XD
kidding...
well, the blog is called "WALKS OF MY LIFE"
of course it's about me and my life and the footsteps in it...
what else would it be...
ain't a food blog, nor a fashion or tech blog...


I love my hair still...that fucshia colour
Next colour would be Blue & Purple!
I'm using Manic Panic by the way...
it's a semi permanent dye, so it's gonna come off sooner of later...


I've been depressed recently...
so much so...that i think...
I need to do something crazy to bring that away...
Would love to change the header...
because things had changed...

Sometimes in life, ppl walks away & left footprints in your life...
What makes them walks away?
Neither the reasons nor hypothetical thoughts should be sought...
but assess the worthiness of you trying to savour each and every person whom you "feel" it's worth keeping and staying in touch...

From that, I presumed  you knew that certain ppl walks away from my life..
I'm down to the earth and disappointed with her...
but andrew's dad had taught me that...
In life, we never lose friends...
we just learnt who the true ones are...

Till next time then...
by the time I'm back,
new header will be up!

xxx

Monday, September 15, 2014

Till deaths do we part...

As shockingly as the last post,
this time, it happened onto my family...
2 deceased family members within a month...

We were all happily enjoying our family vacation during the raya holidays in Penang...
but upon the second day, we received a sudden call from my aunt regarding my uncle who had been admitted into the hospital...
you may ask why...
But, too much details will destroy his name that he had left...
Dad was driving when another call comes in...it had been certified!
Dad loses control and I took over the wheels and head back down to KL after checking out...

Heart wrenching to hear such news...
It's been a while since the last I saw him,before I left for UK...
Never thought, I never get to meet him after I came back...

Weeks after the death of my uncle,
I'm preparing myself for the other one...
Been visiting my granny since she admitted into the hospital in kl...
Been transferred back to hometown,bentong after the doctor said she had done all that she could...

Travelling to and fro...
Bentong and kl...
No matter how late it is,
No matter how many of my friends stopped me,
I just won't listen...

Because I knew,
If not now,when?
With my tight schedules of work and classes,
I just gotta go and not regret it...
And I'm glad I did it...

It comes to a point that granny gotta leave us...
I had missed her,
Although she's from mum's side,
She treated us all equally...
She cooks our favourite hometown foods,
She made her style of rice dumplings to suit our fussy tastes,
she made pillows for us...
She had done so much in fact...

Granny,
I missed you so much..
Thank you for coming into my dreams and left a message for us...
There's a place for u always,
Right here,in each of our hearts...

Sometimes being the eldest in the family,
Has its way to work its magic...
By means,
I get to spend longer moments with them,
Capturing more memorable memories than the rest,
But with such "longer" moments I had with them,
It hurts even more with the "bond" strings attached to them...
The only difference,one was dad's side and the other was mum's side...

Anyhow,
I know Lord had always loves all of us,
And now that He had asked you to return to His side,
May you rest in peace granny,with grandpa
You'll always be remembered~